Personal freedom

On friday, Pilar came to share some of her knowledge and teaching with us, to try to improve our technique in voice. Maybe this work for many people and most probably a really good way to see the voice, but it  doesn't work that way for me.  I really didn't find it of much help, as i dislike treating my voice like she told me to. I'm not saying that she doesn't know what she is doing and what to teach, oh no, she is a very professional actress and i bet a whole lot she knows much more than us. I simply don't like to work my voice as she does, i don't like being told how to talk, i don't like being told how to treat my voice, and specially i hate feeling like i am talking wrong. That she is right and i'm wrong.

I see it differently, voice is something you grow up with, each person develops a completely different ways of talking, some more unusual than others, but this ways of taling that we have been practicing for more than 1 decade and a half and i am pretty sure we know how it works.

Each one of us has got different talents with out voices, if we all had been doing the same, then our voices would be more similar, and there wouldn't be much uniqueness from each voice. Everyone has a different and special voice, or talent. Everyone has a different talent. And it is up to each of us to use it. I am really against the idea of being told how to use my unique talent, it just takes away the whole point of unique doesn't it?

I don't mean to be rude, but i just can't stand being told how to do things that are unique to me. Society has already enforced too many rules upon us. Where we work, where we live, where we learn, where we drive, where we buy, everywhere has it's rules. I can live with those, i know rules are a necessary measurement by governments to produce an organized and predictable environment.

As for my mind, my thoughts and other things that i can keep unique and different from everyone else, i can keep to myself, with my own rules. It gives a small portion of freedom in me to think that human's are special and we are a UNIQUE kind of intelligent form, or at least for an atheist like me, that is my way of going against life, knowing that i still have control, and my own rules to certain things.

When i was told in the class how i should move, how i should see, how i should breathe, talk, what i was meant to feel, it felt like i was being dragged away from this little piece of freedom i had left. I was being taught to be the same as my friends, i was being forced to learn and set the rules as she wanted them to be. I had to stand for it, as i couldn't say nothing in class, but i wasn't very motivated to working.

If we are all meant to learn the same things, to think the same, learn the same way, then what is the point? Where is the interesting part of being a human left when you are forced to be like everyone else?
Why are we told about our false freedom? Freedom which works as a barrier, leaving everyone behind it, and being the same? What kind of freedom is that where we are all the same? We got personal freedom, which we can't be taken away from, and that is our mind. Our thoughts and opinions make us different and give us some freedom. If i am taught how to think, how to feel, how to talk, how to use my voice, that little freedom i got left, all i got left, i being equalized with others, making it no longer freedom, but sameness, such as a rule, which applies the same for everyone.